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Excuses, Tendonitis, and Writer’s Guilt

I should not be writing this right now.

I’m having a tendonitis flare up in my thumbs and elbows, and of course, the best course of action for this is to rest. This will likely be one of the few or only things I write for the next couple days so that I can recover and have the hand strength to write for longer stretches.

I’m a nanny to an infant, and everything that comes with taking care of him are things I should not be doing: lifting, holding, buttoning outfits, feeding him a bottle, etc. It’s physically impossible to rest an elbow! (Honestly, if you know how to rest an ELBOW tell me!) Hands I have dealt with before from clarinet-related injuries, but elbows are a whole different ball game. Of course, typing also aggravates everything too based on how I rest my arms and the small, repetitive motions.

The irony: I want to write.

When I felt fine and was able to type, I procrastinated, as we all do. The internet is a hotbed of distractions, so my writing would come in short, productive bursts. I’ve come to terms that I’m not the kind of person who can sit and write for hours at a time. If inspired, sure, I can have a good 45-60 minutes of solid writing. In general, those writing bursts are shorter, even on the rare days when the baby actually naps longer than half and hour.

Of course, now that typing is the forbidden fruit, I want it. So badly. I want to open up my WIP and go to town on them! Instead, I’m wrapping my elbow in an electric heating pad, taking 5 minutes to write this post, and resting until the baby wakes up. The writer’s guilt is so real right now. I want to give my projects the attention they deserve, and although I have a real reason to take a break, I still feel irritated and sad that I can’t do anything. I have to stay healthy enough to do my job, and I also want to be on top of this before I can’t do things. I’m luckily at a point of discomfort and not at the point where it’s severe. (The goal is to avoid weeks of occupational therapy!)

So to those of you with healthy joints this week: enjoy them. Lift things to your heart’s content, write, and scroll through Facebook for hours. Be careful and be aware of your posture and how much time you use your thumbs though (#smartphone), because this can sneak up on you.

Those of you with soreness these days: I feel you. Take breaks, try not to feel guilty about not writing. I understand that frustration since this is not the first time I’ve had to take a break from writing or practicing music I love. Find creative ways to remember your ideas and mull over some projects that maybe have had a little too much TLC recently.

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